maintaining connections
Well, at least i feel a little more alive today than i have since finishing the stuff for book 3. I can’t even bear to look at all the things i have dropped during the book scramble and the things i need to do. Today should be a fairly decent day to pull the comic together - the concept and idea for wednesday’s comic and the following arcs is pretty clear, i just need to write the actual dialogue (something that isn’t that hard when the concept is clear, you just let the characters talk).
I still have christmas shopping to do, but i don’t know if i’ll get to it. I’m a horrible person when it comes to holidays, i forget people and things, i don’t pay attention to friends (i have few friends because i really am a horrible person when it comes to maintaining relationships … the only one i’m even remotely good at maintaining is between me and sarah 
I think people think i must have tons of friends and stuff… not really, i’m actually chronically introverted. 
I suppose i’m feeling guilty, as i always do around any holiday, about the fact that im terrible at maintaining the connections between myself and other people. Sometimes it will be weeks before i check my voice mail (i have a good friend who was up here with his wife for a week, and i didn’t find out till i checked my voice mail after they left -_- I’m kinda scared to call him ^^;;) Family, friends, i swear they all start to wonder what happened to me, and most of them are only really able to keep tabs on me via the websites.
There’s something kinda sad about that, but i just can’t put my finger on it… anyways, time to head to the factory and stare at my proverbial wall.
- pirotunes: Col De Vence - Une Topographie Sonore -
December 21st, 2004 at 11:43 am
yo dont feel to glum about not having freinds just remember theres someone out there that porbably has less freinds then u. possibly idk
well till next blog. ja ne.
December 21st, 2004 at 12:31 pm
I’m sure your friend won’t be mad at you if you do call. You have an incredibly busy schedule, so yea.
December 21st, 2004 at 12:34 pm
(chuckle) i didn’t say i didn’t HAVE friends, just that i have a tendency to not pay enough attention to them.
Honestly, the biggest problem with having friends is that i’d rather spend time with sarah, and i always seem to choose that rather than hanging with people, so they start to feel ignored, etc. 
It’s not a BAD thing, i just feel guilty about it sometimes 
December 21st, 2004 at 1:06 pm
Dude, don’t worry about it. If they are truly your friends and they know what you do for a living, (and they know your freindship condition) then they should understand when you sometimes (or more times than not) neglect them. It has happened with me, and it’s how you find out who your true freinds are. Till next blog, Cory.
December 21st, 2004 at 2:01 pm
Stupid as it sounds, I have an event in my Reocurring To Do List From Hell called ‘Talk to friends’. Because otherwise I do entirely forget to respond to emails, check the answering machine, and/or call people and wonder why they’re annoyed at me 6 months later
December 21st, 2004 at 2:06 pm
a personality flaw we share… I go months without contacting friends I went through hell and high water with. I have people I went on project death marches with - spent 24hrs/day for weeks… I have trouble remembering their names, omigods.
Don’t even ask about my relatives (most of whom I don’t actually *like* but thats another story).
Just like I made a conscious choice to move to Oregon from Texas… I made a conscious leap to the Net… people who didn’t make that evolutionary leap kind of got left behind.
December 21st, 2004 at 3:48 pm
Heh, I have a chronic inability to e-mail people (I think the folks at Google think so too, my GMail invite count may well hit triple figures soon ^_^;). As a result of this, the people I really *know* are my family (comes of living in the same house for n years) and two friends, one of whom I e-mail every so often, and another who doesn’t care.
Anyway, look on the bright side, you can create some wonderful things, and your friends will understand, I think.
December 21st, 2004 at 5:09 pm
Welcome to Hikikomori life.
December 21st, 2004 at 6:26 pm
Hey, at least they are still keeping in touch a bit. Ive been at college for over a decade now and have made and lost literaly thousands of friends. Basically, they graduate and move off to live their life and dreams, then new people move to college to be met and befriended. What I find is that the really good friends stay in touch despite years apart. Even if it is reduced to email every few months it is SOMETHING (a statement of friendship). So CALL or WRITE your friend!!! They will understand. If they had a problem, they could have tracked you down and started poking you with a stick (if that didn’t work, hitting you with it), to get your attention. ^_^
December 21st, 2004 at 10:40 pm
Ever think that your working too much?
Sure it would suck for a late comic, but the fans can suck it up.
December 22nd, 2004 at 12:06 am
There is a natural inclintion to spend time with the one you love as opposed to ‘friends’. You can care for your friends without having to visit them.
Besides..you’re a busy man. I mean, I work and go to school and barely have time, let alone someone like you, working on book publishing and script writing and such, not to mention public apperances and such. Ugh. It makes my head go ’splodie…Anyway…don’t stress out too much. It’s the holidays, and there’s plenty of people in this world stressing out for you.
(beleve me, I should know…)
December 22nd, 2004 at 12:08 am
Hehe lol first time here didn
December 22nd, 2004 at 1:18 am
When I was wrapping presents for my family, I discovered that they were all having Christmas last weekend (I just moved to Maine and couldn’t join them.) So now I’ve got my presents for my brothers and their kids all sitting here in my living room waiting for me to get off my butt and mail them now. In either case, they don’t make it by Christmas. I’m good with maintaining relationships if I can talk via IM or see the person every day. Otherwise, I go off in my own little world.
December 22nd, 2004 at 5:41 am
i know the feeling of forgetting people or spending alot of time with one person and not remembering about others…and i rarely remember to check email(when you have junkmail in the triple digits it’s been a while) and christmas shopping is horrible…i never what to get people
December 22nd, 2004 at 7:40 am
my bad i didnt mean to say it like that i was in a bit of a rush as usual. im sure such an awesome person like u gots plenty o freinds. well till next blog. ja ne.
December 22nd, 2004 at 10:38 am
O_O
And I thought I was bad at remembering names…
Oh well…
BTW, what exactly does ‘ja ne’ mean?
(I feel like a baka not knowing…)
December 22nd, 2004 at 10:45 am
it means later
December 22nd, 2004 at 11:46 am
Don’t worry about it, Piro. >_>;; I have the same problem. I’m always afraid that what I do isn’t enough, that I didn’t try hard enough and it’ll disappoint everyone. I hope everything turns out okay. ^_^
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