Well, it was an interesting experiment, to be sure. I’ve been very quiet about it and other stuff recently, so much so that the few blogs that i have done has led people to believe that i’m very depressed right now, or just feeling in some sort of funk that wont go away. That’s not really true. The fact is, there’s a lot going on right now, and more than I had planned. DId you know that i’ve taken two trips in the past two weeks? Didn’t miss a comic, either Sarah and I took a short vacation trip into Canada for the weekend, came back last night and finished the Circuity series. Some different extremes, to be sure.

I decided to wait till i was done with Circuity to talk about it in a rant on the MT site, because it’s one of those few times that i was able to do something that was started and finished in a short period of time, and was a self contained work. I almost lost my nerve to finish it two comics back, i was worried about the dreaded label of ‘melodrama’ and the ubiquitous ‘i don’t get it’ but i stuck to my guns and finished it. The real reason i had trouble finishing the last two pages was that i wasn’t in the kind of serious, sombre mood that i needed to be in to finish those days. I had to take myself there, and that wasn’t really fun.

You need to be careful about the stories you set down to write. You may be in the right mood to do it when you set out, but have a care for later on, there may be depths of feeling you really don’t want to go back to.

- pirotunes: Dwight Ashley – I Swallowed A Thousand Saws -

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Posted by fredrin on July 25th, 2005 :: Filed under Daily Blogging

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A slightly bigger gap in rants and blogs than usual recently, but that is mostly because i’ve been writing three things at once, and oddly enough, it has been working. I’ve been writing chapter 7 and establishing a good general framework for it, i’ve been working on this omake (which really a highly distilled and focused version of the original ‘circuity’ story idea, which would prolly have been 100 pages and really IS different than what you are reading, an odd mirror/turbulent refraction of the original ) and… I have finally got my arms fully around the warmth story. Yes, warmth. I’ve mapped the entire thing out now, and even tho its still a grand overview, i’ve started to map down the bigger chunks so the details can start connecting things together. Long time coming, but its finally puling together.

I sorta hate being a “method creator” – kinda like a method actor (someone who lives the part they are acting), the stuff that goes on the paper in front of me has to go thru my head, and tends to wreak all sorts of havoc on the way down. ^^;; This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, because writing stuff that makes you feel certain ways is a lot like watching stuff that makes you feel certain ways… thats what art and storytelling is all about. Some of us are lucky enough that we are able make stuff that effects us, and the real lucky ones find that it effects others as well.

So i’m kinda lucky, i guess. But it puts all of you at the mercy of what i am willing to put myself through

Honestly, though, this omake has been a nice stretch for me. I’m an intense person in a lot of ways, and the sad fact is this is where my work tends to lean… but i think this leaning is part of what makes the lighters side of my work, which is also very important to me, work as well as it can sometimes. I have an odd sense of humor that is there even in the deepest darkest parts of my pysche… which is a good thing. It’s like always knowing where the door is.

The last chapter had quite a few serious moments in it, and you could almost say it was a little off balance, but it had to be done to get things really into the places i needed them to be. The balance of chapter 7 is going well so far, and the intent is that the start of it should be a nice contrast to this rather serious between-chapter omake.

anyway, all this methodology has been making me moody and uncommunicative if you look at my website mutterings, but the truth is i feel good about what i’ve been creating, and it’s stuff that will be feeding the things i make for many months to come.

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Posted by fredrin on July 18th, 2005 :: Filed under Daily Blogging

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